With college comes stress, and with stress comes an overwhelming desire to curl up into a ball and hide in the corner, hoping and waiting for the world to become safe again. Of course, all we can do is cope, and do better next time.
Organization has never been my strong suit, so stress tends to hit me hard during the semester as I constantly rebound from careless mistakes and forgotten assignments. At least, that was the story last semester. I coped just enough to scrape by. This semester I have to minimize stress. I have to remove the source of my problems and thus not have to stress about them in the first place. I need to stay organized, write down important dates, prioritize my concerns, and for the love of god, DO THE WORK.
Today was an especially stressful day, as I had to deal with a funds problem that I caused because I have been up to this point too inept to properly keep track of my bank account. I had to take some money out of my college savings to ameliorate the damage.
The weeks to come will hold even more stressful days, and I will do my best to cope.
Tablets Are Fun
For Christmas I bought my girlfriend a tablet from Genius. At about 50 dollars it is an amazing deal. It is both responsive and accurate, and has already proven itself to be worth well more than the 50 dollar price tag lets on. Because of this, I have begun doing sketches on the computer, so that I may post them on my blog once again. Here I have two sketches from lastnightsparty (BE AWARE: Link contains some nudity) and one.. um.. yeah.
Click to see reference image.
(BE AWARE: Reference image site contains some nudity if you venture past pages I have linked)
(BE AWARE: Reference image site contains some nudity if you venture past pages I have linked)
Note: My good friend Travis helped a little with this one.
Go Frustrations
I did successfully study go with no music for an hour. The problems in my life and death book have gotten difficult very fast. Since I am forcing myself to figure out the problems in my head, it has become blatantly obvious that my reading skills are incredibly poor. Creating all those imaginary stones in your mind and keeping them in the right place takes an incredible amount of concentration. There would have been no way I would have made it through this book with music blaring in the background. My inability to solve the problems on the 4th chapter of the book frustrated me, so I tried playing a few games. I resigned both very early in the game. My frustration bred more frustration and I plummeted.
It was not a good study session, but I am not shaken. I will take this as a lesson. When I find myself frustrated again, I will take a step back, breath in deeply, and solve the problem slowly and surely. Frustration just makes you do worse. You think less, you act overconfidently and overplay dramatically, you exaggerate the odds that are against you and forget how to act accordingly. It is a bad pit to fall into, but determination and solid foundation can get out back out of it again.
Tomorrow's study session will be better.
Until then,
-BuddytheRat
I did successfully study go with no music for an hour. The problems in my life and death book have gotten difficult very fast. Since I am forcing myself to figure out the problems in my head, it has become blatantly obvious that my reading skills are incredibly poor. Creating all those imaginary stones in your mind and keeping them in the right place takes an incredible amount of concentration. There would have been no way I would have made it through this book with music blaring in the background. My inability to solve the problems on the 4th chapter of the book frustrated me, so I tried playing a few games. I resigned both very early in the game. My frustration bred more frustration and I plummeted.
It was not a good study session, but I am not shaken. I will take this as a lesson. When I find myself frustrated again, I will take a step back, breath in deeply, and solve the problem slowly and surely. Frustration just makes you do worse. You think less, you act overconfidently and overplay dramatically, you exaggerate the odds that are against you and forget how to act accordingly. It is a bad pit to fall into, but determination and solid foundation can get out back out of it again.
Tomorrow's study session will be better.
Until then,
-BuddytheRat
